Monday, March 23, 2009

The Prodigy


I stared at the window,
The window stared back,
As if I'm a widow,
Confined in this room.

My words ripple the feeble,
My thoughts challenged the thoughtless,
Few comprehend,
Many falter.

Papers of unspeakable jargons,
Literary works astray rearranged,
The hundredth game I've played,
I cause them all.

Again I pass the time,
Waiting for nothing,
Yet nonetheless hoping,
For someone like me.

Paradise Lost


Postcard sent to someone

I miss them,
I want them back,
I want to go back there,
I want my paradise back.

Not here where I'm at,
Not with the drones,
Not with the honks,
Not with the buzz.

There's plenty of work,
There's plenty of anger,
There's plenty of depression,
There's little of sleep.

Give back my peace,
Give back my holiday,
Give back my life,
Give back my paradise.

My paradise, lost.

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Postcard received from someone

Burning tanks,
Smoking gun,
Fighting flanks,
Not fun.

Threading across the desert,
A mechanized goliath,
Built by a wizard,
With fire and death.

Machineguns ripping overhead,
Cannon shells thunder across,
Sands flying in your face,
Victory lies ahead.

I served my duty,
Where others fear,
One thing's for sure,
You don't wanna be here.

Monday, March 2, 2009

The Middle-Aged Recluse

Separated from the bright joyful, middle-class suburban neighbourhood of its surroundings is a small, old, decrepit house located on top of a hill.

The surroundings were an odd couple, mixed between tall, untrimmed grass rife with garden snakes, while the trees were lifeless without a single leaf populating its twigs. The outdoor appearance of the house appeared like something out of a post-apocalyptic movie. Stacks of old tires were piling up right beside the house, posing as a dengue hazard towards any incoming visitors to the house. Old newspapers piled up on the righr side of the entrance, and unclaimed letters, mostly advertisement or sales promotion letters, were littered around the mailbox installed right beside on the left side of the entrance. It appears the owner takes only the important letters and discard the rest for mother nature to consume.

A slightly rotten wooden rocking chair lay close to the entrance veranda, with the passing southern wind occasionally giving it a ghostly presence of life. The windows around the house were brown and dusty. The curtains inside the house were drawn down and never drawn up. At times, a single life can be seen peering through the curtains only to disappear seconds later.

Inside, the smell of the house is intoxicating, as if someone had just opened the mummy's tomb. It was dusty and the air is too thick to breathe due to floating dust particles; it's difficult imagine if there is such a person who could survive in this condition. Also, the smell emanating from a toilet right around the corner is hardly describable by words. The only part of the house that isn't a dust or stink magnet is the living room. The television is still usable as electricity is present in this house, even if it looks otherwise from the outside. Unlike other things around the house, the television, though a bit old, seems to be cleanest object in the house. The couch, though pretty beaten up with missing foams and protruding springs sticking out, is nonetheless comfortable enough to be sit on. Both the television and three-person couch appears frequently used as there were little or no dust. Surprisingly well-maintained and clean.

The kitchen is not a sight that one's mother should witness. Imagine a restaurant kitchen that doesn't pass through health enforcement regulations, but with fewer people using it and you'll get the picture. Unwashed dishes filled the sink with a couple of flies feasting the leftovers. Since there is still someone living in this house, maggots are yet to find a home here. The kitchen's refrigerator frequently emits a loud, vacuum-like noise, signalling its lack of service. Frozen foods, canned foods; all the instant, quickly prepared meals populate both the refrigerator and the upper kitchen cabinet, respectively.

The bedroom is simple enough: a king-sized bed, a few pillows though most were used to fill out the extra spaces, and of course, a blanket. Like the living room, the bedroom seems frequently used, hence appearing somewhat cleaner than the rest of the house. Again, signs of wear and tear were apparent, but doesn't deter the present amenities from being useless.

At night, it appears almost lifeless, but occasionally, there is light, the sound of footsteps, the sound of basic human expression, the sound of running water, the stereo noise of television, and the smell of canned foods being cooked. A reclusive middle-aged man is said to live in here.

Mid-Semester Break

The sudden jolt of spark running through the cerebral cortex's information highway reactivated me from a state of suspended animation. I felt a bit drowzy, but wide awake. Peering through the darkness, my right arm reached out towards the small cabinet right beside my bed, rummaging my hands across without an eye contact looking for my handphone. As soon as the unseen yet thoughtfully familiarized shape of the Sony Ericsson w810i handphone became apparent through the feel of my hand, I immediately grabbed it, brought it closer to my face, and pressed the left button to light it up. It was already 1321 hours in the afternoon. As my apartment room is located next to a corridor, there's barely any difference between daytime and nighttime. Makes me wonder why do they even bother putting up a window in it.

I got up with the strength of a partially hibernated animal, scrambling the grip of the blanket, drawing out my foot to the floor, left foot first, touching on the mildly cold tiles, making my way to the door covered in darkness emulating a slightly boozed up but stable man, exiting my room with a small basket of toiletries in hand and straight to the bathroom. There's no need for me to explain how it feels like to go to the bathroom. It's a typical morning (or should I say afternoon) ritual for everyone and it all follows the same or either path: take a shower then brush your teeth. Mundane but preprogrammed, and a necessity as well.

Touched up with some common man's grooming, I put on my standard-issued wear: a random t-shirt from my locker and a Monsieur Nicole comfort fit, added with extra belt pouches to carry basic necessities like my handphone and a folding blade (don't ask!). As with all things that I took with me, it's either all-black or of dull colour. It's sort of my personal superstition that black or other dull colours lowers my visibility in public, thus attracting less attention, which may equal less trouble. Off I went leaving my room, taking my all-purpose Timberland backpack with my laptop and multi-purpose jacket inside. A small serving of energy bars and coffee is all that I need to start my day. With my boots fastened, I opened the door of my apartment, exited out and onto my own solo adventure.

"Adventure where?", you might ask, and I would answer, "anywhere!". This what a mid-semester break is all about: just you, your instincts, a modest pocket, and the whole map for you to explore. Take a bus at random and see what interesting places it might lead you to.